Autumn

You came with the tulips.

And your voice delighted me,

The way the birds' chirping pleases a tree.

Life seemed to flow with your presence.

It introduced me to multiple senses,

Like hearing the sound of swaying grains

And tasting the sweet moisture brought

By the wind.

But spring seemedto leave

Without an interlude.

Music fell into silence,

As green turned into amber.

The dry air left abittersweet scent of death,

As the placid streambecame murky

From the heat.

There is a sad comfortin knowing that

You will eventuallycome back.

But it is still along winter.

Moon Chase

I have waited for this night
To be with you.
For my dismal body
that was burnt by the sun,
Yearned for the touch of your mild glow-
Soft and lights

The birds that soared the skies
Were replaced by the crickets from the woods,
Heightening my anticipation for your coming.
Where we could finally succumb
In stellar pleasure

You rose into the dark horizon,
From afar.
I ran barefooted towards the grasslands,
To welcome you.

But behind you were clouds,
That brought the perennial rain,
Chasing you on heavens battlefield.
There we were, suddenly set appart
By the roaring thunderstorm.

I would spend another night,
soaked in disillusioned hope.
With my vision soaring beyond the mountains
Thinking,
Just how bright you shone
In the other side.

A Letter to the One that God has prepared for me...

I am wondering at this very minute if you are thinking of me, if you, like me, are wondering what is taking us so long to find each other. Many times I thought I finally found you only to be disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. I get up each morning hoping, dreaming, longing to meet you. I am thinking of how we will meet, would it be as romantic as the ones I have seen in movies? Or is it possible that I have known you all my life but we have yet to realize that we are meant for each other? Oh how I wish you were here right now because you are the only one who has the answers to all my questions. Sometimes I ask myself if I have ever really known "love". I do not have the answer to that question either but I believe that, more often than not, we will never really know what love is until we find that right person.... and since I have not found you yet, then maybe I do not really know what love is! You just don't know how often I dream of finally knowing what it feels like to be in your arms. Even at this very moment I am imagining how you will simply sweep me off my feet! Perhaps I would be drawn to you by your smile, or by your eyes, or maybe even how you manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways! I don't really know for sure but I am praying that God will help me recognize you when the right time comes. I think of all the pain that I have gone through in the past and of how much I have cried since the day I began my search. I just wanted you to know that I find my strength in clinging onto my vision of the beautiful life ahead of me --- the life I shall spend with you. In my mind and in my heart I know that you are worth all that pain and sacrifice. After all, the tears have become a part of my life and I believe that they are slowly washing away my flaws so that I would become perfect, not perfect in its truest sense, but perfect --- for YOU! I wonder if you've gone through so much pain as well. I wonder if you've been hurt so many times along the journey. But my dearest one, please don't ever give up because I am right here ... patiently waiting for you! I assure you that when we finally find each other I would slowly heal those wounds by my love. At night, I would look out my window and stare at the beautiful sky, hoping that somehow you are also looking up and wondering about me. I utter a silent prayer and end all my cries to the heavens above thinking that in time they would reach you. And when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and believe that you are on your way and that you are longing to see me as well. It is funny but when I finally fall asleep, it is still you that I think of, for you are always in my dreams. It seems that, for now, that is the only place where I can hold on to you, long enough to tell you how much I love you. In my dreams you would kiss away my fears and wrap me with your arms of love. And this, all the more, makes me want to wake up and face the new day ahead with the hope that soon enough, you will no longer be a dream but a reality and once again I am assured that you are worth the wait. And when that time comes, everything will fall into its place, just as I had imagined, just as I had thought and dreamed, just as I had believed it would be! By then, I would simply look back and smile at all that I have gone through, in spite of the pain and amidst the simple joys of life --- and I would be very thankful because they all led me to you! In the meantime, take care of yourself for me. Hold on to our dream and don't even think of letting go. Believe in your heart that we will find each other no matter what happens. God has planned the course and it is up to us to follow the directions. Don't worry, don't be afraid about getting lost, God saw to it that all the roads, no matter which one you choose to follow, lead to me.

~September 18, 2004~

"to love is to recieve a glimpse of heaven"

Some Unspoken Words II

Yearning for your breath,
Your touch,
Your tender body against mine..

Oh yes, I have never laid my eyes on you
But the moment you utter those sweet words
I felt safe.
As if no one would hurt me..

I kept my feelings inside
I was trapped inside my emotions..
Afraid..
Lonely..

Deep inside it's killing me.
Slowly crushing my weak heart

I know this is wrong,
Foolish..
But what can I do?
I just can't stop myself from falling in love with you.

Some Unspoken Words

Remember the night
When we laid awake in a single bed?
We were cloaked behind the dark blanket
Of midnight
You and I, blankly staring at each other.

Your lips and mine
Have finally obtained tangency
Bridged by warm breath,
Bound by the soothing feel of a tender touch.

It was supposed to be the night
That I would break free,
That I would finally affirm that indeed,
Things have already changed for me.

But as your soft breath whispered
Words of a hollow promise
And an uncertain hope,
I turned back.

It could have been the night when
I would confess that all this time..
I was ruled by nothing but guilt;
When I could not escape your middling allure.

It was the ultimate chance for us,
If only we are not bordered
By this impending boundary called
Friendship.

There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn't expect you to believe it, but trust me, there are some love that don't go away.. and maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky enough to end up with that somebody who has a little of that insanity. somebody who never lets go. somebody who cherishes you.. FOREVER.